Blog 1 - August 23rd

[comicalmayhem@lemmy.world]

So uh. Blog, I guess. I've waffled on doing one of these for a bit I guess but as I've already mentioned in the sidebar, who the actual fuck makes and/or reads these things?

Me, I guess. Whatever, fuck off. You're the one who tuned in to the unfiltered direct stream of consciousness that this crap is. At the very least I'm hoping to maybe get my thoughts together instead of dropping them like it's hot, the fuck are you getting out of this? You sick voyeur fuck, I know what you are, and I like it.

I guess I should talk about, like, my life and stuff. Gonna try and not let myself get doxxed to oblivion and back.

Started fall semester recently. Full time ie four classes, which is cool, but once again my schedule is fucked to hell and back. Looking for work has been a pain in the ass; got nothing over the summer, still haven't gotten anything. It's hella depressing, some day soon my emergency savings are going to run dry and I'm going to suddenly be homeless, which, uh, is definitely not something I wanna be. So let's cling on to hope, of which there is very little because I chose Computer Science for a degree. It's like that fucking meme, with the kid at the fork in the road, except both sides is homelessness. Just a matter of time, like the fucking Alice in Wonderland rabbit. That fucker is haunting every shadow in my life, holding that dumb fucking watch with that smug ass look in his face. The fuck is he thinking about? Lurking around that child in the other meme like his banker was Jeffrey Epstein, fuck outta here and let me have my bread and circuses.

Hah, get that? Yeah that's called a callback joke. Oh, you got it? You understood the callback? Yeah you fucking would, pervert, crawling through my post and comment history. You're a real creep, you know that? Stalking me and shit, what's next, you're gonna fuck me or some shit? Please do, I'm desperate.

School's fine, I guess. Two compsci related classes, two gen-ed stuff I need to round out my requirements. Nothing crazy. Both the compsci classes tho are kind of washed. One professor is AI brained, like almost everything about the class has the shadowy wicked hand of generated sloppery behind it. Funny thing about that class; the prof did like a poll on the first day, was like a sliding scale of how much you use AI from "completely dependent" to "grass fed AI free" (paraphrased of course). Majority of the class was on the human-beings-are-batteries side of the spectrum, like they use the fuck out of AI or use it but delude themselves into thinking they're in control. Which, sort of violates my world view? I had been under the assumption that people mostly hated this bullshit, but I mean there's a class full of fuckheads outing themselves as AI brained. The cognitive dissonance is crazy, maybe I spend too much time on here. Echo chamber ass place got me thinking everyone hates it but everyone around me uses it and thinks it's great. I'm still a hater though, don't worry. I'm a hater through and through, I hate everything, in case you haven't picked up on it. I forgot what the point of this was.

Oh yeah.

There's been 5 different professors I've encountered who believe in AI to some degree and think it's going to stick around forever. I guess they're right to some degree, as much as I wish it wouldn't and fucking loathe to admit it. It's rough. I hate AI, the slop disgusts me every time I see it. Literally, I feel physically disgusted seeing AI slop. It's fucking everywhere and it's totally untrustworthy, not to mention terrible on a societal scale, but nah. Apparently that's the next big thing, and that anyone going into CompSci anything is going to have to work on or work with it, and all I can see is Mr Bones Wild Ride, and I'm in the line staring at its dead eyes and wicked grin, it's top hat lifted cockily as I march forward on the endless slop ride. We're fucked, aren't we? As a species, I mean. I don't want to think about it but we kind of are. AI this, oil that, datacenter here, genocide over there, the world is heating up to unbelievable levels, the oceans are dying, and things will never ever go back to the way they were and it scares me, oh god it scares me so fucking much. Everyone is desperately clawing for a spit of safety somewhere, anywhere, while the few at the top just poke them with a 10 foot pole, and I'm stuck in the middle of it like everyone else.

fuck man. why did i write this.

Ok you know what we're not doing that anymore, haha, let's go back to the funny bits where I insult you between random nonsensical thoughts, hahah. That was fun and not depressing.

Actually I think that's enough for one post. Fuck you.